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♥ Wednesday, December 31, 2008

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Few more hours and it's New Year's Eve! Feeling sad cuz i'm at home.. But i'm actually tired cuz of work today. Got lots of things to rush out the whole morning till lunch time. And had late lunch today cuz i was super busy when everything suddenly all pop out! I have to issue cheques, i have to issue invoices, post out cheques, bank in cheques, and everything things makes me so blurRr!!!

Today one of my boss treat us to lunch again! Bought us to Boon Keng MRT station there de market? I shall call it hawker den.. Sounds nicer.. Had 4 dishes for jus one meal when there's only 4 of us eating. Tat is alot!!! Eat till cannot eat.. Super Loaded with fooD! And today is the last day of my colleague JiaYi.. But i heard she'll be coming back to help out with some construction drawing. So i'll still get to see her but maybe not soOo soon..

After lunch did some touch-up of my work tat i'm supposed to finished den started rotting in office. Thinking tat it will be like Christmas eve? Cuz Christmas Eve my boss called and say we can go off an hour earlier. But not this time.. =[
So ya.. Left office at 6 and come back home. Now super tired.. Going to bed in awhile..

HAPPIE NEW YEAR'S EVE!

*P.S.: Bebe.. I am soOo Missing you, i have one more week to tidy up myself and you'll get to see the new me tat u once knew and loved. I jus wanna say i do hope tat things will be back to the way it's supposed to be. I hope we can spend all our monthly and annually anniversaries together with no quarrels but with love. I love you

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♥ Sunday, December 28, 2008

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Woke up at 10am this morning! This is so early!!! But i slept at 9.30pm last night.. Hehe.. Woke up and do make up for my grandma to attend a wedding lunch. Den i cannot go back to my lala land anymore.. Cuz i cannot sleep.. Not tired anyway.. Jus feel like going to bed and rot..

Dinner time my secondary school classmate came over to pick up something from me. Actually he bought handphone accessories from me. It's for his gerfriend and himself. And i passed him a few more to help me out with selling. And after he left my place for 15 minutes, he called and told me he sold 2. Tat is super fast! Let me show u the handphone accessories i passed to him.


(Red angel)
This is the colour he bought for his gerfriend.

(Dark Blue angel)
This is for himself.

Now let me show u some of the 2 other colours tat i have...
(Pink angel)

(Light Blue angel)

They are made out of Swarovski Crystals and it's totally hand made. If friends you're interested in buying for ur phone or giving it as a present do let me know.. U can choose the colour of your preference of the wings and i will help u match the others for you. I'm selling it at $10.90 per angel and it comes with an accessories pouch for FREE! And only meet ups, cuz posting it will break it.. The crystals won't break but the angel will break into pieces. So ya..

I'm off to bed.. Nites

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♥ Saturday, December 27, 2008

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It's been few days i never blog le.. Too many things happened tat stunned me a little these few days. Christmas day passed boxing day passed, next is new year's day follow by Chinese new year. Been realli busy recently and i'm trying to find my life back. Back to who i am.. It's kinda tired cuz i dunno wat i wan in my life, i have no goals i have no aims. Mmm.. Wat's life??? Everybody do have to think about it. Even though everyday we have to live and move on. My first goal and aim in my life is i wanna be independent cuz i noe i'm no longer a princess. Sounds sad? Na.. One more to go.. I wanna save lots of money, get myself a car and live the way i wanna live. Unless somebody wants to buy me my car. Lolx.. I noe i can do it.. Cuz it's my goal and aim in life. I do have a goal and an aim now.. How about you?

Remember me saying i wanna get a wallet? A gucci wallet? Instead of a Gucci wallet, i got myself a Louis Vuitton one. 







Sounds like i'm rich? No i'm not okie? It's because i feel tat it's time i find something tat i can do to relax myself... Tat is to buy things tat i had aim for super long. It's my way of pampering myself okie? I've not been pampering myself for more den a year? Tat's my first most branded wallet? Mmm.. Tat's the most expensive thing i buy for myself in my whole life okie? Tat's my christmas cum birthday present for myself.

Had a little dinner  gathering with my ex colleagues, my "mummies" They bought me presents!
 And we went for a short shopping trip. Den i only got back home at 12? When i got work the next day! Was super tired and sleepy..

And on Boxing day in the office we little gers had our own pizza party! 


This is Jiayi the colleague who is leaving end of the month.

This is YeeMun who will be working with me for the coming years ahead.

And this is me being vain again okie?

And we had gift exchange too!
 


And last of all, My best Christmas present was being able to stop quarrels with my bebe. Even though my christmas day was bad at first but turns out better the other half of the day. Realli hoping tat things will turn out to be wat it used to and we both be as lovei as ever..

Merry Christmas to all!

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♥ Monday, December 22, 2008

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Today will be a short and very simple blog.. But is for my bebe.. So ya..

Bebe.. I jus wanna say i do really love you lots.. Hope this relationship will be everlasting.. My heart will always be with you. And all i wanna say is.. I love you..

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♥ Sunday, December 21, 2008

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First of all i need to thank my friends for the concern yesterday and today. Even though i will not be reali okie but i'll try my best to be. No worries.. I noe i had been crying for the whole of last nite but i won't cry till i fill my house with tears.

I dunno how well i can go on without my bebe. And i hope this is another cool off period for the both of us. I really do wanna hold on to this relationship till we grow old. I really do love him lots, and i really love him more den i love myself. But all tat i am really hoping for is tat my bebe can gimmi another chance of turning back. I really dunno wat else i can say to let my bebe believe in me. But all i noe tat i can do now is to start changing and not forget my promise made to him. 

P.S.: Bebe, i really hope u can give me another chance of turning back and mend this relationship. And without any hesitate i can tell you tat i truly love you lots.

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♥ Saturday, December 20, 2008

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I dunno why i'm jus so xiao qi.. I dunno why if he dun send me back and goes out to somewhere else i am angry. Jus because he never send me back? I reali have alot of questions to ask myself..

Jus had a very big quarrel with my bebe and he has made up his mind on giving me up and breakup with me. I noe no matter how much i try to stop him from having this decision, once his mind is set he'll not change. I noe everything is jus my fault and i'm the one who caused all these. From the start it was all along me.. But since the cool off period i had found out the solution to change my way of being in this relationship. I dunno who to explain but i jus noe how. But it seems too late to only find the solution to the problem the past 1 week. I had made up my mind and hoped it will work things out soon. Gave myself a month after i found my solution but it seems like i have to change my plan and i only can give myself 3 weeks to make things work out.

I am a ger who treats people differently.. I treat my boyfriend one way, i treat my friends the other way and i treat my close friends another way. Cuz different people have different thinking.. This is wat i feel.. So i dun treat everybody the same way i treat my boyfriend. But since the day i told him i will change i still can't find my solution why i am treating him this way. Until recently i found the solution to the problem? I jus got to realised tat the way i treat him is wrong? I am jus pushing things to the end of the room tat makes him have no way out. It reali feels heart ache to hear him say he wants to give up this relationship. But i noe i have left him with no choice.. I admit tat i am someone who loves to be pampered and cared for like a princess. Everyger hopes for tat.. I noe i can no longer be pampered like a princess and be cared like a small kid anymore. And i am a stoopit gerfriend who always kick a big fuss out of every single little things. I noe i've always been making my bebe angry and pissed off over everything tat i do. Some times i jus dun feel tat i'm wrong until my bebe gets angry and scold me. I am a person who is very slow with my brain. I dun think well and fast enough.. I dunno why am i like tat.. I reali hate myself now.. Jus feel like killing myself ! ! ! Can i?

P.S.: Bebe.. Can we jus be wat we used to? I jus wanna be back to how i used to be.. I wanna hold on to this relationship and let u see the future in us. I reali jus hope tat u can gimmi the 2 weeks to change and be wat i used to. I reali jus found the solution to my problem and i reali wanna give it a try and will never give up. I noe it's hard on u tat every now and den i've been like tat, but soon.. Not anymore.. I promise.. I reali dun wanna breakup please...

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Hates saturday.. Cuz i still have to work another half day. I have always wanted to find a 5 days work job. But ya.. I got no choice!!! If i am able to choose den i will choose not to work and get money? Isit possible? Lolx.. I'm day dreaming again..

After work went to meet my bebe at his aunt's place to do some praying. Den we went over to Novena to do some stuffs and had our lunch with his previous boss. Though was a short day out with him i am reali happie tat he can find some time out jus for me. But i was reali disappointed tat i was left alone in the end. I was left to go home alone.. Isit jus me again??? I noe is my fault.. I shouldn't have expected him to send me back cuz i stay very far away from his house. But it feels sad and it hurts to be left alone when i thought he will send me back. =[

Okie.. I noe is my fault... I can't expect him to treat me like a princess anymore..

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♥ Friday, December 19, 2008

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Today's work is like so tired??? I dunno why but it's giving me headaches.. Was so busy in the morning but after lunch was slightly better and the work makes me have super dry eyes. Think is caused by the air-con. Den had a little rest and started becoming busy after my toilet break. My boss came in.. Den start to become soOo busy tat i dunno wat i'm doing? Ya i said i am super bad with numbers.. And i'm supposed to issue cheques! And write alot of things tat i can't remember doing it the 2nd time? It makes me feel like killing myself!!! Isit jus my brain? Or isit cuz of numbers? Think is both, cuz it's somehow linked..

It's my bebe's bookout today! Was looking forward to it.. And it's finally here..! After work i was tidying up my mind with my work.. Den left the office and went to meet my mummy for dinner as usual. Reached home and had a stoopit quarrel with my grandma. She can actually argue something tat is not real??? She always feels tat the things she say is always correct??? I dunno!!! I jus feel reali hate it when she's like tat. Cuz i actually asked my mummy about the christmas party tat my uncle is holding. But it has not come to a conclusion until this morning? Cuz i should be having parties to attend on christmas. Cuz my uncle did not confirm tat he's holding the party, so i assume tat he's not! Cuz he'll be back from Hong Kong only on Christmas day! And tat makes me have no intention in having christmas with my family? And she can tell me tat it was confirmed since so many weeks ago? It's like WAT THE!!!!! Hate it.....!!!!

Den my boyfriend called, at first the talk was still in peace, but after awhile we started again.. Quarrels and arguments.. I reali dunno wat is wrong between us.. He claims to say tat it's me who is making this relationship become like tat. Wat have i done wrong again?? I reali dunno wat is wrong! He has expectations on me, and it will be the same tat i will also have expectations on him! I am here trying to get myself up to his standard but has it gone down the drain? I am trying and he says he noes tat i'm trying but why can't he jus gimmi more time to see more changes? Dun force me to find the way out! I reali can't do it and i am trying reali hard! Jus gimmi somemore time and i'll prove to you. Jus dun force me during my tries.. I only can say tat i am willingly doing and trying jus for you bebe.. I dunno how much u can understand wat i'm trying to say, but yes, i am reali very happie being with you. I jus dunno why you're not happie with my answer but it comes from my heart and from the deepest side of me. I have thought it so many times before u asked me this question today, cuz during our cool off period i asked myself alot of things tat i noe i still love you and will be forever.. Tat is me and it will always be.. Since u said u see some changes in me den gimmi more time to change jus for you.. And someday you'll noe you've not made a wrong choice. Tat's me!!! I love you

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♥ Wednesday, December 17, 2008

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After some thoughts, i think this camera will be better? Think it looks nicer in a way... Anybody any suggestions? Mmm... Money plays a big part in my life too! So i have to think many many times before i decide on anything tat i wanna buy.. Should i get this (T77)? Or should i get T700?

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Think these few days my blog will be about my work and only work.. Nothing interesting in my life when i start working, so ya, bare with me..

The start of the day was super bad..! My big boss came in and after awhile there's visitors and my bad day begins.. A call came in and was looking for my big boss, but was some promotional stuff from a hotel. I dun remember wat hotel was it but remember the lady's name! If she's gonna call again i'm gonna scold her again!!! Cuz my colleague told me to ignore the call.. But have to tell her tat my boss is not around and all. But she insisted tat i give her my boss's number! I can't!!! So i told her to leave down her number and i ask my boss to call her back. But i was not listening to her at all cuz i was told to ignore her! She called and paster my colleague yesterday too! She thought i was the one who answered the call yesterday, she actually scolded me! Saying tat i did not pass down her message to my boss. Den i started to told her off on the phone saying tat i was not the one who answered the call. So it's not my problem! And she scolded tat i am not doing my job! This is not her problem!!! And she added saying so i seat in the office and do nothing? I told her back, YES! So??? She got angry and hang up the phone. If she ever call back and tell me anything i'm gonna tell her off again and say my boss is not interested so dun call back! ! ! ANGRY ! ! !

After tat i was feeling better, it was lunch time..! Brought the auditing stuffs down to another boss's car and he drove us to Chinatown Point the auditing office. Ya and again, even though i was feeling better, i feel tat we all got cheated.. Cuz the audit lady told us they will be out for lunch at 1, but at 12.30 they were out liao!!! It was like wat the...!!! But na, we left the stuffs in a law firm's office and ask the audit lady to go over and take it herself.. Boss treat lunch again.. SoOo Paisei..! I work less den 1 month, he treat us lunch twice le loh.. And remember??? Yesterday he bought us ICE CREAM! So after lunch we decided to put the money in the car and jus tell him tat we left the money there. But end up we failed.. Cuz he told us he got a higher pay and he wants to treat us lunch. Den ya.. We had free lunch again...

I'm tired... So sleepy.. But soOo happie cuz after 3 days, my bebe finally called and talk to me le! He was telling me tat he'll be having test and have to study so we didn't talk much. But still glad tat he called.. I'm jus soOooooo missing him..

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♥ Tuesday, December 16, 2008

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Totally stressed out in office today even though i was super sleepy.. Did some daily stuffs den big boss came in.. Den did some $$$ stuffs for him and do some calculating of his personal account. I am soOo bad with numbers and yet i have to understand something in like a snap? I dunno it was wrong cuz my colleague who is teaching me about the things i was supposed to do seat beside me and watch me do. So i thought it was rite? And she dun even noe it was wrong too! Den my big boss came out and ask who wrote the calculation. It was me.. But my colleague checked before i pass back to him! Both of us didn't know until he stressed me out.. Saying tat the calculation i wrote on the cheque book was wrong. And cuz i am so bad with numbers, he explained and i needed some time to actually noe wat i have to do, he expected me to understand in a snap! Haiz.. I am reali soOo slow with numbers!!! Tat's why i'm hired as a clerk!!! Not accounts!!! Took me like 5 minutes before i understand the whole thing.. BIG BAD DAY!!!

After lunch another boss came in and bought us ice cream! And all of us was very full after our lunch.. But ya.. finished the ice cream.. And while eating i was taking down notes of every single thing from the file, and wat i'm supposed to do for all the papers!!! I am still stressed out by soOoOo many things tat i have to remember and understand.. I am now still doing my revision and re-writing my notes! Super stressed today...

I jus wanna complain.. I'm jus toO stressed i guess.. =[

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♥ Monday, December 15, 2008

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It's jus another boring Monday today.. As usual, went to office and after work went home.. It's becoming a daily routine to me now..

Whole day in the office.. And it's jus like having virus in the air.. All 3 gers in the office feeling sleepy not dun feel like doing anything. It started by me.. Hehe.. I think it's cuz of Monday blues.. But to me every weekday is blues.. Can i be one rich tai tai staying at home having high tea and waiting for my darling to come home?? How i wish.. Dun think this dream will come true anyway..

Nowadays my brain is not working.. Cuz watever my colleague taught me, i can't remember!!! Somebody tell me wat am i supposed to do?!?!?!?!?!?! Will try to make my brain work starting from tomorrow.. Cuz my colleague will only be here for me this month and she'll be going for her studies! Nobody to help me anymore.. SAD... Will work hard to remembering things...

I'm going off to bed.. Think i'm jus lack of sleep???

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♥ Sunday, December 14, 2008

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Woke up early today cuz was noisy downstairs my block.. It's malays having wedding.. Ya.. Super loud and i can't sleep! Den in the evening went to pick mummy with my sister. She drove and i was in the car taking photos.. Jus feel like taking photos today.. Ya okie.. I'm vain!!!


This is me before i left home..


Her sleepy pooh.. She caught it with the dream catcher spending only $2!!! Cute rite??? Love it..


Tat's me.. Trying to be stoopit while she's driving..


When it started to get cold in the car.. And i'm still taking photos! lolx..

Picked mummy and we went to Far East.. Had early dinner at Hans.. Bought nothing today.. Cuz of Christmas season.. Alot of people!!! Do shopping will die!!! Everybody squeezing here and there.. Dun like.. After while den we headed back home.. It's jus a boring day...

Ya.. My bebe is back to camp again.. And i jus got to know tat he'll only POP on the 22nd January 2009! Still a long way to go.. Jus hate it!!! And is jus 3 days before my Birthday. And it's a weekday! So it means i can't attend his POP.. Cuz i'll be in the office. =[

Starting to miss him again.....

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I dunno if the cool off period of me and my boyfriend is over. But it seems to be over yesterday..

Yesterday after my work i was supposed to report to my next destination my "Mike daddy's office". Till now i still dunno my way there alone, so my "mummy" came to pick me up from work. Den drove me to her place and "daddy" went to pick my boyfriend who's still at home. Den we headed for our lunch and down to AMK hub. My boyfriend is there to pay his bills and we all went there to buy our tickets for our nite movie.

Okie.. I admit i was pulling a long face the whole of yesterday cuz i was not feeling well. Ya.. I have pills tat cause drowsiness for my rash and at the same time having my monthly sickness... Gers noes tat very well..

Headed back my 2nd home for some packing.. But i fell asleep in front of the lappy for 2 hours i guess. Den i was carried to the master bed room to continue my sleep.. Woke up at 6 and started to do some packing in the house cuz it's still in a mess with cartons of things.. I did some wrapping of presents for Christmas.. Den headed back to AMK for our movie!

Caught the movie "BOLT"..  Is reali cute and funnie movie.. Mmm.. I should say it's also a must watch movie of the month.. While watching the movie my tummy was calling for food and was cold!!! After movie den we had our dinner.. Having dinner at almost 12 in the morning.. Den "daddy" drove me back. Fell asleep again in the car cuz i am used to sleeping early nowadays cuz of work.. And my bebe sent me home. Had my lovely hug at my doorstep and i went in. Jus hope tat this hug makes the war becoming love..

*I wanna say i'm sorrie to my bebe.. Cuz i was pulling a long face the whole of yesterday, hope u understand*

I'm still thinking of wat i should get myself for my birthday.. A GUCCI wallet? This is the most simple and nice one tat i see from the website..  Dunno how much will tat cost me.. And i thought of getting myself a camera too..! Sony T700  I dunno.. Still can't make up my mind.. And also thought of changing my make up box.. But tat empty box will cost me $400! So i think a wallet or a camera will be better.. My make up box can wait will i have more spare cash.. May change my wallet first.. Cuz mine is more den 4 years old??? Lolx..

Or anybody wants to get me my Gucci wallet and T700 camera for my 21st birthday???

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♥ Friday, December 12, 2008

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Saw this article on my friend's blog and i feel tat we should share wat we read.. So i copied and share with all of you..!

5 actions that are essential for your relationship:

1. Hellos and good-byes

Greeting your partner and saying good-bye are quick and easy to do but often overlooked in the chaos of hectic schedules. A warm, expressive greeting can set the stage for the entire day. An affectionate “good-bye” allows you and your partner to emotionally hold on to loving feelings while separated from each other. You’d be surprised how often couples skip this simple way to book-end their days. It may seem easier to put all your morning energies into catching the 7:15 train and overlook taking the time to stop, make eye contact with your partner and genuinely wish him/her a good day. Don’t fall into this trap.

2. Share the trivialities of life

Think back to a time when your relationship was new. What did you and your partner talk about? Probably anything and everything. The excitement of new love propels us to share even the smallest details of our day. Unfortunately that level of sharing often dwindles as relationships mature and responsibilities mount. Focus on the act of sharing to refuel intimacy. The simple act itself is more important than the specifics of what is shared. So make it a habit to share the trivialities of your day with your partner.

3. Learn to laugh together

Shared laughter is a surefire way to keep the connection with your partner vibrant. When you laugh, you’re tapping into the playful energy that transcends life’s stresses. When you and your partner make each other laugh, this energy feeds intimacy and life becomes a little less daunting. Make time for mutual playfulness and make fun of life’s absurdities —this will help you both cope with stress, develop perspective and achieve a greater sense of togetherness. 

4. Communicate through Touch

Touch is a powerful way to communicate affection and foster intimacy. Whether you’re sitting across from each other at the dinner table or next to your partner on the sofa, make the effort to increase the amount you touch one another. Touch also has a calming effect on our bodies, so if you want to create a relaxed, loving atmosphere and make your partner feel special, lean into each other the next time you’re at the movies or watching TV. 

5. Show your appreciation

It’s human nature to want to be recognized for the things we do. When you express gratitude, your partner receives the message that you are thankful and are not taking him/her for granted. An atmosphere of appreciation will create positive feelings and deepen your connection. Don’t fall prey to the expectation-mindset, where you start to believe that your partner is supposed to do all the things s/he does and therefore doesn’t need to be thanked for them—this mindset creates a dangerous atmosphere of complacency that erodes intimacy. 

These five loving acts don’t take much time and don’t cost a dime—but the payoff is huge. You will be taking steps to protect your relationship from the fast-paced tempo of life.

No.5 makes me a little confused.. Why can't i have expectation? I should have a change of mindset of not having expectation..?
Ya, think i should.. Cuz i jus wanna hold onto my relationship forever..

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♥ Wednesday, December 10, 2008

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Dunno why i'm still having cold war with my boyfriend. Ya, i still dun get to hear from him not even a word. Not even a reply sms.. I have been trying and trying to message him, tried calling him.. But it jus dun get through.. I'm still feeling so sad tat he jus dun understand how much i miss him. No matter how much i miss him, no matter wat i do seems to be so empty tat he dun feel it at all. Dunno why i'm feeling so sad and crying every nite covering myself in my blanket. I'm jus tired of crying and i dunno wat to do. He jus dun seem to bother me at all.

After work today i went to meet "daddy Kelvin" for dinner. Dunno wat happened i suddenly sneeze and after awhile my eyes start to swell and after awhile i start to have rash! I dunno wat to do, cuz i dun think i had rash since the day i was born. Scared and worried, so blurr and dunno wat to do. I went to the ladies and start washing my face with water. But it does not seem to work at all!!! Den i dun bother and headed with my window shopping at Marina Square. Went to see a bag tat i long wanted for. Cuz i dunno if i should get it so i jus wanted to ask someone to help me see if it suits me. So ya.. Asked Kelvin along since he free.. Waited for Kelvin for quite long cuz he was held up with some office stuff.. Den we headed for dinner den i was nagging tat the rash reali itch!!! But i still insist tat he accompany me to see the bag i wanna get. Den back to the shop to see it again and without thinking i bought it! Cuz the current bag i'm using is rust! So i think it's time to change.. 

My bag from m)phosis!!! Wanted to get a white one but still thinks tat black one will last longer. Dun wanna waste money.. It is not heavy.. Tat the reason for getting it.. So i can have things tat are heavy inside.. Hehe.. Is jus an excuse i think.. Lolx.. The real reason is jus because my current bag is rust.. SWEAR!!!

While on the way home, my eyes were still swell and everywhere on my body itch! Kelvin insist tat i go home and have my shower and see how it goes. Now it still itch but better i guess.. Tried calling my bebe but he's phone is off.. Wanted to tell him i'm having rash.. But.. =[

I'm jus so missing him...

I bought bread yesterday.. They were so cute! Is mini buns from four leaves. Dunno if it taste nice but i still got it..





















Bought them for my mum's breakfast today.. They are jus so lovely tat i dun feel like eating them..

I'm tired... Cuz i'm still itching!!!!! And i reali miss him lots..

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♥ Monday, December 8, 2008

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As expected that i won't get a call or a sms reply from my boyfriend today. No matter how many times i call him, he jus won't pick up. But after some thoughts, i tried calling him again.. I noe it's irritating but i jus can't take it any longer.. I jus miss his voice and of course i do miss him super lots! And after few tries, he finally picked up the phone.

But things are still the same.. He's still giving me the angry tone and tat tone of voice tells me tat he does not feel like talking to me. I realli dunno wat else i am supposed to do.. I'm tired and stressed up.. Feeling that i'll be sick soon.. having abit flu and cough now.. No matter how hard i try, not matter wat i do he jus feel that i wan to stick to him wherever he goes. I am not someone who will stick to my boyfriend if he dun wan me to. But why can't he think of how i feel? Whenever he books out from camp, he'll be out with my "daddy mike". Is not tat he can't go out with mike, but can't he think more of me? I am his gerfriend! He can actually spend more time with mike den the time he spends with me. It makes me feel tat mike is his gerfriend and i am his friend. Why isit the other way round? If he can't meet me den at least be like last time.. Tell me he can't meet me but will still find the time to actually call and talk to me. We used to talk on the phone for at least half an hour jus for chats, but not quarrels! But now is only quarrels and quarrels.. I am realli tired of quarrels and scoldings!!! Can we jus stop it and be like wat we used to be?

Can this relationship last and be like last time?

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♥ Sunday, December 7, 2008

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It's been 100 days since my beloved uncle passed away. Realli missing him.. But life still has to go on. Grandma and grandpa is going back to Penang for visiting cum short trip holiday next Friday! Yeah!!! Finally get to have the room to myself for weekends the coming week.

Me and my boyfriend is still not done with the quarrel we last had.. He says we both needs a cool off period. Fine.. I'll have my life and u have yours. That is jus all you wan from me.. Cannot have comments, cannot have expectations, cannot have hope, cannot ask when is the next time he's meet me. I jus dunno why do i have to be so different? Why can't i ask things tat comes to my mind? I jus understand that i cannot think of things i wanna do for next few days, cuz he jus can't take it. All i can do is think for the next day instead of thinking of plans for the whole week. I am jus someone who likes to think of plans for the coming week and tat's the reason why i like to ask before hand. Why isit jus so wrong to ask him when is the next time he's meeting me? I jus dun get it....! Everything i do is jus so wrong to him.. I am also very tired of thinking.. But why am i doing all these??? Cuz i jus miss him so much tat i can't wait to see him! Why can't he jus understand my feelings and my thinking? I'll be more den happie if he can tell me an estimate of when is the next time i'll be seeing him... He jus dun get it at all.. I dun demand for alot of things but is jus an expectation from my point of view for a boyfriend. Am i jus so difficult to understand and get along with??? All that i'm asking for is jus a simple call telling me wat he'll be doing next. Tat's all!!! I am jus so used to be pampered and cared for.. Dun expect me to get used to not being pampered and have all the concerns i used to have. It realli hurts deep down in me..

I'm not the one being unreasonable.. Is jus an expectation..

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♥ Saturday, December 6, 2008

♥ THE PRINCESS ME ♥

Ever since i started working.. Days are still as usual.. Infact i feel tat it had become boring. After work, go home, naxt day wake up and i go back to work again. It's become a daily thingy.. But after work when i get home, some times i reali jus feel like hearing from my boyfriend calling asking me how's my work and how's everything going and etc.. It's not as i hoped.. Recently he has not been calling and only messaging me telling me he's tired and he wants to go sleep. Wat else can i do? Ya.. Just let him go sleep.. Even if he called and have a small talk about my birthday plans we quarreled. Why is our relationship becoming so empty? Cuz he's in camp and i have to be treated this way?

I do wanna hold on to this relationship, and yes i do love him lots.. Think i even love him more den i love myself.. But why can't he see it??? I can't do a thing but jus keeping things to myself.. All i wan is jus some concern tat he used to gimmi.. Even when time is a problem, i was jus hoping that he can make the effort to find and squeeze out some time to think of me. I realli dunno wat i'm supposed to do anymore... I realli do wan to hold on to this relationship, but why is it jus so stressing me up?

Bebe.. Can we jus stop all the quarrels and be wat we used to be???

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♥ Tuesday, December 2, 2008

♥ THE PRINCESS ME ♥

Today's my first day at work!!! I went early jus in case i'm late for my first day.. But i got there 15 minutes earlier and the colleagues only got to office 20 minutes later! I waited 20 minutes standing at the door..

Today's work was quite simple but seems like i have lots of new things to learn within this month.. Seems easy for the ger who's teaching me.. Cuz i'm taking over her job and she's going to further her studies.. Office is super quiet and i still dun get to see the BIG boss yet.. Hope he's friendly..

Jus had an argument with my bebe cuz of my coming Birthday.. Falls on Chinese New Year's eve!!! That's the worst part.. Cuz i actually intend to celebrate my birthday on the day itself.. If worst come to worst celebrate the day before my birthday.. But he claims to be busy for the whole of that week cuz of Chinese New Year! SUPER ANGRY!!! Now even gerfriend's birthday also cannot find time. I know is hard cuz of Chinese New Year, but even for while it makes me happie.. Can't he jus understand??? He insist tat i celebrate a week before.. A week before my birthday is so far.. So many days before my birthday!!! I dun like it.. This year also celebrate a week before, but on the actual day he still got to find time for me.. But why can't he find a little time for me next year? It's still 2 months away from my birthday but i jus feel SUPER sad can???

*You promised to think.. I'm having headache on this okie??? Dun force me to think!!! U decide and u tell me.. (tell me no $$$ how to celebrate???)

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♥ Monday, December 1, 2008

♥ THE PRINCESS ME ♥

Today is 1st December it's me and my darling's 1st Anniversary! Cuz cannot celebrate with him today feeling sad but I'm glad and happie to be with him. Hope we can celebrate the next anniversary together..   

Today never attend my first day of work.. Having stomach upset.. Almost half of my day spent in the toilet.. Feeling bad.. But I'm reali on MC.. So dun blame me for not going work.. =[

That's all for today.. I jus wanna say.. Bebe.. Love you!!! *MUACKS*
~i wan my present!!!

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